So, not really. But that's the current song I'm listening to.
Somewhere along the way, I lost my motivation. There's no excuse. I stopped writing and I stopped exercising. Yeah, I go to work but I started eating for convenience again and other similar shortcuts. I can't say that I'll stop completely but now that I'm admitting it, I'll change it. Bit by bit. Strangely enough, I also stopped watching Korean romantic comedies. That's also in the works to be fixed.
Short summary since my last entry. I lost that boyfriend, thankfully, and dropped the rest of that baggage. Found a special balloon, and went on some adventures. I met some interesting people along the way and said goodbye to some close ones as I finished college. Graduated with a BA in Social Sciences, majored in Psych and minored English. I'm not ashamed to say that I don't miss school at all. I miss St. Augustine and that time, but I don't miss school. Definitely a few profs and all the learning. Geez, all the learning. But tests, exams, paper after endless paper? I'm not sure I can put myself through that again. I've had a couple more surgeries but I'm still here. It's been a little over a year since I graduated, and I had some moments there too. Went to Nashville and helped my sister tear down her basement after the flood. I, supervised by my father, didn't do any of the destruction. I got hit by lightning, lost a fight to a peanut butter jar, made some tasty tasty foods, produced a ton of scarves, and made a plan for my future. A plan I promptly crumbled like a piece of paper and threw behind me. You know the toss, the hits the rim of the basket and falls out, but no one cares cause no one's looking at the basket anyway but at the person striding away purposely ignoring what's behind them. I came back home, spent some time with friends and got a job. A real one that paid bills and everything. I might have been living at home but I was an adult. Oh yeah, in between all that I spent three weeks in Alaska visiting a friend from high school, which bleeds nicely because I'm typing from his computer in Fairbanks. Did I mention I moved from Florida to Alaska in that mix? Yeah, just a little thing.
I have a job and bills here too. I do miss my family and friends and definitely some big town things. At the same time, I can't imagine being anywhere else for the moment. I'm an honorary Aunt now to a cute little guy who just celebrated his first birthday. I live with his parents and my boyfriend. It's pretty awesome. I see mountains on my way to work. It's the end of May, almost 10 and still sunny outside. The mosquitoes are the size of small birds and there's this goat in the neighborhood. So random, and wonderful. A goat. Why not? I turn 24 at the end of the month and while I'm not where I planned on being, by any stretch, I think I'm somewhere so much better because I could never have imagined this outcome. And doesn't everyone live for the twist?